Am I really the Joker? Or just a poor imitation. A mere clown.
I really don't know, but humour (bad or not) is my way of coping with things. Laughing it off. Didn't some expert dude once say that "Laughter is the best medicine"? Well I subscribe to that. And I'm sorry if some of you people out there can't appreciate it and are irritated by it. It's just my way of dealing with things. So deal with that in whatever way it is you use.
Someone just told me the other day that I'm one of the most positive people she's ever seen. Well, I thank her for that. But I guess there's a downside to that. The grass is always greener on the other side huh? I sometimes wish I could act DAO and just stop being so bloody positive all the time. It gets hard sometimes you know? Like when I know that sometimes I just wanna emo and be alone, with all my thoughts. And yet the minute I just start being a little less positive, people start going"Nicole, are you alright? You're not talking.. Are you sure you're alright?". I thank you for your concern. But sometimes, I wish I could just scream:"DAMN IT LAH. WILL YOU JUST SHUT UP AND LET ME EMO?" No one can be that bloody positive all the time. I'm entitled to my emo moments/moping time as Yuesing calls it. So next time you see me being not so positive, think twice. When I need help, trust me I'll ask for it. heh. Only truly brave people like the woman will probably ask me. lols.
Just to end off, wasn't that supposed to be MY sobfest?
P.S. Maybe I should just be positive about it and say that that slightly less than 2 hours of drama helped me. Heh.