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RANDOM FACTS

well, i am 17 years old, aren't i?

ONE Nicole is random, like this section. TWO Even though she's been skinny half her life, she's currently getting fat, due to lack of exercise and her love of cheeeese!! THREE She's totally an Italian food person but loves some Western, Chinese zhi char, XIao Long Bao, American fast food and MIS dishes =)) FOUR Nicole likes music, really. She was so crazy over music she joined the Music Elective Programme which while was torturous, she gained something out of it. FIVE Right now, Nicole is listening to KPop (BigBang and 2NE1) while still going on about boybands, Hilary Duff and random Disney people, and obviously The Jonas Brothers. SIX Nicole is secretly pro-everything, I'm pro human rights, pro gay rights, pro cheese on hotdogs, pro we-shouldn't-have-exams-because-it-kills-trees, yup. Pro everything and pro AT everything. =D SEVEN Nicole loves her cheem sounding CCA - International and Strategic Affairs Council or ISAC for short. EIGHT But Community Service Club will always hold a special place in her heart, the volunteering spirit will always burn within Nicole!! NINE Nicole loves several teachers, namely, Mrs Koh, Ms Tan, Chen Lao Shi, Mrs Martha Tan, Ms Cheng, Mrs Chu, Mrs Susan Tan, Mrs E-von Lee, Mr Leong, Mdm Nora, Mrs Bok, Ms Ng (both), Ms Teo, Ms Aw and Mr Tiew. TEN And Nicole takes these people as her role models: Obama, Ellen Degeneres, MM Lee Kuan Yew, SM Goh Chok Tong, PM Lee Hsien Loong, Ho Ching, Elim Chew, Mr Sng, Mr Low, Mr Ng, Ms Aw, Mrs Bok, Annabel Koh, Chan Li Wen, Tan Bao Jia, Alicia Ho and Sylvia Lim. ELEVEN Nicole eats. A LOT. Ask anyone who knows her, they'll tell you how much. TWELVE Nicole sometimes wishes for nonsensical stuff like that she was a guy, or world peace, or for people to just stop hating really. THIRTEEN This is an unlucky number, so I'm not gonna put anything here! FOURTEEN Nicole has a great sense of humour and cannot stand people who don't laugh. FIFTEEN Nicole has a sense of adventure and would love to travel all over the world someday, unfortunately due to her cold phobia, she'll have to strike half the world of her list. SIXTEEN Nicole is actually still 16, but decides that since her birthday is coming soon on the 18th of December, she will fake that she's 17. SEVENTEEN
Nicole does not understand why everyone wants to remain at 17 because she desperately wants to drive and buy her dream car (Ferrari Aurea Spyder), thus she would rather remain 21 forever.

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Will I ever be enough?

10:09 PM - Monday, May 11, 2009

Yeah.. Will I ever be enough?? That's a darn good question.. It's one I believe we ask ourselves constantly..

1. Will I ever be enough as a friend?

2. Will I ever be enough as a daughter/son?

3. Will I ever be enough as a brother/sister?

4. Will I ever be enough as a student?

5. Will I ever be enough as a mother/father?

6. Will I ever be enough as a human being?

And endless variations ensue.. In my opinion, the last question encompasses every single variation. We are all human beings (except for Amanda maybe), and everything we do in life is to prove that we were worthy to be given a chance to be on this Earth, to have a life, to live out our days.

I just read the woman's blog and she said that she worries about not having any direction in life. Well, it's a topic that randomly but often comes up in our discussions/chats. I personally feel that I have found my direction in life ----> VOLUNTEERING and living life with passion for what I love.

I also think that having direction in life defines us, it gives us purpose, gives us a sense of what to do, this direction (be it north, south, east, west, inside and outside) will define our actions and guide our thoughts. And we are judged by our actions and thoughts, are we not?

Take for example my decision to join the 2008 Raffles Model United Nations (RMUN) because of my love of debates and current affairs, if I had not joined it, would I have realised how much I loved MUNs? Would I then had to struggle with the decision to take up CSC or ISAC as my first CCA? Would I have sat down and earnestly thought out the next step into my senior high life? By choosing to join ISAC, knowing that JC is a time for trying out new things, I have chosen to let CSC take a backseat. But as Ms Tan herself said, she knows that I won't let my decision slow me down in terms of my volunteering work. True enough, I haven't.

By struggling within myself, I found that my passion for Volunteering and Community Service was so strong that even if I took up something else, this passion would continue to BURN.. By struggling within myself, I found out that Ms Tan and Mrs Koh had actually foresaw this day, and were ready with an answer for me, that they trusted and believed in me, that all they wanted was for me to be happy. By struggling within myself, I emerged with an even stronger interest in ISAC than before, sure of my choice and thus willing to do anything for it.

Whether or not others see this all the same way as I do, I believe that because I have this particular direction in life, others do not see me as one who is merely doing volunteer work for the hours, but rather see me as one who truly believes in what she is doing. Like Jodie said:"you're like the person with the most burning passion I know", haha.. I'm glad that what I have done has made an impact on her, inspired her to throw herself into volunteer work more (hopefully). And so at the end of the day, when the time comes for me to judge whether I was worthy to be on this Earth, I hope that I can say with conviction "YES, THAT WAS A DARN GOOD DECISION OF YOURS." =D

For in life, one is not judged by the breadth or length of one's life, but one is judged by the DEPTH of which one has lived. =)