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S E V E N T E E N
RANDOM FACTS

well, i am 17 years old, aren't i?

ONE Nicole is random, like this section. TWO Even though she's been skinny half her life, she's currently getting fat, due to lack of exercise and her love of cheeeese!! THREE She's totally an Italian food person but loves some Western, Chinese zhi char, XIao Long Bao, American fast food and MIS dishes =)) FOUR Nicole likes music, really. She was so crazy over music she joined the Music Elective Programme which while was torturous, she gained something out of it. FIVE Right now, Nicole is listening to KPop (BigBang and 2NE1) while still going on about boybands, Hilary Duff and random Disney people, and obviously The Jonas Brothers. SIX Nicole is secretly pro-everything, I'm pro human rights, pro gay rights, pro cheese on hotdogs, pro we-shouldn't-have-exams-because-it-kills-trees, yup. Pro everything and pro AT everything. =D SEVEN Nicole loves her cheem sounding CCA - International and Strategic Affairs Council or ISAC for short. EIGHT But Community Service Club will always hold a special place in her heart, the volunteering spirit will always burn within Nicole!! NINE Nicole loves several teachers, namely, Mrs Koh, Ms Tan, Chen Lao Shi, Mrs Martha Tan, Ms Cheng, Mrs Chu, Mrs Susan Tan, Mrs E-von Lee, Mr Leong, Mdm Nora, Mrs Bok, Ms Ng (both), Ms Teo, Ms Aw and Mr Tiew. TEN And Nicole takes these people as her role models: Obama, Ellen Degeneres, MM Lee Kuan Yew, SM Goh Chok Tong, PM Lee Hsien Loong, Ho Ching, Elim Chew, Mr Sng, Mr Low, Mr Ng, Ms Aw, Mrs Bok, Annabel Koh, Chan Li Wen, Tan Bao Jia, Alicia Ho and Sylvia Lim. ELEVEN Nicole eats. A LOT. Ask anyone who knows her, they'll tell you how much. TWELVE Nicole sometimes wishes for nonsensical stuff like that she was a guy, or world peace, or for people to just stop hating really. THIRTEEN This is an unlucky number, so I'm not gonna put anything here! FOURTEEN Nicole has a great sense of humour and cannot stand people who don't laugh. FIFTEEN Nicole has a sense of adventure and would love to travel all over the world someday, unfortunately due to her cold phobia, she'll have to strike half the world of her list. SIXTEEN Nicole is actually still 16, but decides that since her birthday is coming soon on the 18th of December, she will fake that she's 17. SEVENTEEN
Nicole does not understand why everyone wants to remain at 17 because she desperately wants to drive and buy her dream car (Ferrari Aurea Spyder), thus she would rather remain 21 forever.

T A G B O A R D

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Struggling with my heart and my head

6:12 PM - Saturday, May 2, 2009

Should I or should I not,
TO BE OR NOT TO BE,
that truly is the question..

ISAC committee positions for 2009 are now open, sad as I am that the seniors are retiring (I think they're awesome and that we can learn so much from them - they're super smart!), right from when I joined ISAC, I knew that I wanted to be involved with the running of the whole thing.

When I first applied for ISAC, I also filled up the form, choosing the roles of Secretary-General and Deputy Secretary-General. Even now, my choice has not changed, once I have fixed my mind on something, unless I'm really really wrong, it won't change.. =/

Now that the time to apply has come, I'm really not sure which post I want. I'm struggling between my heart and my head..

My HEART tells me to apply for Secretary-General, to have a greater role in the running of ISAC, to be the one changing the direction in which ISAC is going to go, this natural leaning towards leadership positions is something that is innate, something inborn, after all, my name Nicole means leader of the people. I can't fight it, I really love be the one out there ra-ra-ing the people! I aspire to be the same kind of leader in ISAC that I was in Community Service Club, passionate and caring, being the kind of person that my peers could joke around with me and tell me my faults directly to my face without being scared of my reaction. To be the kind of leader where my juniors enjoy talking to me, where they come to me for advice even after I've stepped down.. I genuinely genuinely love ISAC, how could I not? After choosing it over Community Service Club (the first love of my life), with the blessings of Mrs Koh and Ms Tan I might add, I've decided to pour all of my energy into ISAC, and really, even in any position, I think I'll be happy to serve.

My HEAD tells me to slow down, to not rush into things like I always do, yes people do say to follow your heart, but sometimes.. the head is more important. I have to admit that my grades have naturally suffered due to my overcommitment to my CCAs, its a proven fact.. =/But after my narrowly-making-it-through-to-JC this year, I've made a promise to myself to work really really hard.. No more excuses about how I can't do sciences, now that I'm in a total Arts stream (except for Maths, which I'm actually doing well in) and I've seen results so far.. But I've never truly been tested, and I'm afraid, really really afraid, that if I become Secretary-General and chair ASEAN+ next year, that I will fall back into my old ways of heck-caring schoolwork over my CCA.. =/ I really don't want to live in fear of getting my results back, to cry before getting results because of uncertainty, to have to restart all over again, seeing Alicia and Li Wen has woken me up, no more playing around.. But old habits die hard, can I or can I not do it? How do I reassure my parents? How can I prevent myself from disappointing them for like.. the 6th year in a row? I really don't know if I can do this, but I know I desperately want to..

To Be or Not To Be?
Can someone please tell me the answer...

Gods, the dateline for the application is coming soon.. Someone tell me what to do.. Do I follow my heart or do I follow my head?

Haiz... =/